The election is over. All the hours of watching debates, listening to talk shows, and following polling is over….but not in the way I wanted. I’m at a loss for words to describe exactly what I’m feeling and thinking, and some things are better left unsaid.
Two things, however, hit me hard this morning.
1) I was trusting in “man” to bring change to our country’s heart. I said that I wanted God’s will done, that His outcome was best, that we didn’t deserve His blessing, yet all the while I was confident Romney could bring us to victory. And when he lost, for a moment it felt like everything was lost.
2) I’m scared to think of hard times ahead. Of course my mind blows things out of proportion, but I don’t want to face rising unemployment, rising gas prices, tighter budgets, more taxes, and more national debt. I want material comfort, a rising income, and prosperity. (As if a well-lived life comes with possessions and wealth!)
I’m still disappointed. I’m still questioning. I’m still praying. But I now know that I also need some to do some soul-searching.